I grew up loving God and my life was going swimmingly until my family became an ash heap through the fires of divorce--a death that keeps on living.
I faced deep Satanic attack on all I ever believed. I asked “God, are you for REAL? If so, are you ENOUGH?” I looked for something, especially someONE, to fill the ravenous chasm in my soul. My mind knew God was enough; my heart rebelled. I asked my soul’s deepest question, “God, are you ALONE enough to make me HAPPY?” I challenged Him to SHOW UP and fulfill ALL his promises to me and to keep me from enslaving myself to some gorgeous, but tinny, delusion.
HE showed me my heart’s worship-destiny and that the ONLY reason I can long for good things is because he created them to exist! Tenderly, TANGIBLY, He INITIATED the healing process in my shattered heart.
However, the turning point for me was TRUTH. NONE of my hard circumstances have changed. Every day is still very much a manna thing. But I am happy because God turned my face to his LIVING letter to me and showed me His vaulted faithfulness to His people. I embraced the BIGGER STORY.
Now, I'm delighted to be me and compelled to share the truth that shapes me.